User blog:Raven4522/Blog Post June 21 of the horrible and depressing year of 2020

I don't know how to start this off sort of- formally, but I should just get right to the point.

I don't really know how to tell my parents I've had a lot of changes going on in my mind lately that I think way differently than I did before quarantine. I have a lot of different opinions, have been a huge introvert, and thought about my future and stuff I do differently. Now, those opinions are somewhat beneficial to my life and its future, but some that I believe in or are really dumb may make my parents ground me for the summer once again, like last year.

For example, but an actual one: I don't really want to eat with the family much anymore. Now, don't get me wrong, I love them, and my religious beliefs of praying before we eat are the same, though some of the stupid reasons that make me not do it is, well, eating sounds from them, table drama due to my siblings horseplaying, and talking to them or something really childish/cringey comes in the conversation that my family is having. I know these are really dumb reasons, and if I tell these to my parents, I'm probably going to assume they're gonna really get onto me for being a stupid b button blood type I am.

This is one of many reasons, not just for eating with my family, but also doing things with my family. I know my computer hobby may go against their rules and regulations that they put on me, and the fairness- say my father gets a new iPhone. I like electronics (my hobby) so I want it, right? Nope. It gets given to either my brother and sister and I have to spend my own money to get myself stuff. I know this is the adult way of doing things. I'll probably stop talking about that, but it really gets on my nerves when it shouldn't. They don't want me to be the king of electronics in the house/family, due to past incidents as a child I had of stealing passwords for fun, and that I'm ashamed of and they make me way more ashamed of.

I can't really get a break of this, and I want a break of this. Not even other parts of my family- my parents tell them how to restrict me on the go by taking my phone/computer/whatever I have at night, or stuff I do with friends.

KS